.Wednesday, November 18, 2009 ' 5:42 PM Y
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KILL ME
I remember we said a few times that if a certain school paper was our As, I would cry because it's so screwed up and all.
Well, I'm not crying now not because I aced all the paper, but rather the countless setbacks from all the school paper has almost immunized me. It's almost the end already and I want it to be over. Truth is, it all pretty much went so badly, that I really don't know what to expect. It's like what am I supposed to expect when I'm up against how many thousands in the nation and I know I just didn't perform. Some even below my usual, or my best of which really is FAR from the best of the lot.
Econs used to be my favourite subject but after today's paper, I don't even expect a good grade. Can I even pass? I don't even know what I was writing for some!? It was just plain shit.
It doesn't help that I have been having fever since yesterday afternoon. Well, of all times of the year, NOW?!?!
I don't want to accept the reality eventually. Right now, I really don't wish to continue thrashing myself, but I must...
And to think that I could have never imagined sitting for a major national exam feeling I can do it... Now... I don't even remember how it feels like knowing you can make it for even a minor test
Labels: Examinations
.Sunday, November 15, 2009 ' 6:36 PM Y
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i really dont wish i will regret later
This weekend has been so unproductive. I know it's ridiculous to be counting every second I am spending but I need to. Yet, I cant get going.
So I really hope I don't regret all the breaks I've taken. For now, I'M GOING TO NEED TO FOCUS REAL HARD.
GET ME THROUGH THIS.
Labels: Examinations
.Wednesday, October 14, 2009 ' 9:11 AM Y
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stop the countdown
This week has been passing kinda of slowly. However, I'm getting really scared because all those countdown people are doing is freaking me out!
Don't do those days of countdown please! It makes my heart skip a beat. I will start thinking about how much more I need to do, and I will start thinking about the first weeks of As, which is hell. How am I going to survive GP paperS and Bio paper 2 (of all parts of the paper too!). I'm scared hell.
It's like placing all the bets down on this. Alright, all the way please!
Labels: Examinations
.Saturday, October 10, 2009 ' 5:40 PM Y
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all gone
This isn't the first time but I think I will never get used to my parents both being away at the same time ):
Thank goodness prelims have ended (: My poor sis is going to have her exams soon. JIAYOU! We will both slack and ignore the housework :P except I still have to wash the clothes every alternate days. I'm going to attend school with un-ironed uniform for the next week or so (: HEHE.
I think it's the hormones but I feel so sad ): (It is not because my parents are away - I'm old enough to be indep (:)
Yesterday night felt nice being with the team, HX, Kaiwen and Fiona. I wonder if Brother and Jingyi studied when they reached home? I reached home at 10, had super late dinner (since my mommy cooked) and by the time I bathed and all, I was too tired to do study. We should have just stayed longer.
Be strong!
Labels: Canoe, Family
.Tuesday, October 6, 2009 ' 6:01 PM Y
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Ouch Ohhhh AHHHHH
Life's a bitch now because of As.
Life's a bitch now because my academic future seems so bleak now.
Life's a bitch now because I'm so tired of trying and trying and trying.
Life's a bitch now because everything academic for these past 2 years make me feel like an idiot.
Life's a bitch now because I feel myself becoming stupider even though I'm attempting to study so hard.
): ): But we will need to pull through, and I thank all my friends who are there even though I know life's a bitch for them too now.
Labels: Examinations
.Friday, October 2, 2009 ' 10:44 PM Y
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the great fall
I didn't even get to traumatized or upset when I got back my GP compre which was a big fat S.
Yet I've been so bothered by this little sms, that's enough to wreck havoc on me.
It really hurts when you expected it to be alright, but it turns out now. Now I'm beginning to wonder if I was dellusional, or I just dont know TOO much stuff that I felt it was okay BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT IS THE REAL ALRIGHT.
It hurts to hard. It scares the hell out of me because it's 6weeks to As and I've not even seen myself do well NOT EVEN ONCE FOR A SINGLE SUBJECT for these 2 years.
Labels: Examinations
.Wednesday, September 30, 2009 ' 10:50 PM Y
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My First M18
Actually, I can't really remember if it really is my first M18 movie. I know I had a couple of NC16 but I'm 85% sure
The Inglorious Bastards is my first M18 move.
The movie was a little too draggy. I totally fell asleep at Chapter 4 (The movie is like a book, split into chapters). Only the back was more interesting, more action packed and a plot that was moving at a faster pace, but damn gory.
The weather is SO BAD that they have to freeze up the entire movie hall. My teeth were chattering even though I had my jacket on. When Brother and I walked to Ion (WHICH IS SO TOTALLY NOT INTERESTING), the haze was so bad that the air stunk (I think the construction sites contributed more to the smell but nevertheless, air quality was horrendous).
It was good going out with Brother after so long (:
Oh and today during our extremely long break today, Tiffa and I went to release all the pent-up stress and cooped up feeling by going for a 30min jog. My first 30min jog which I talked throughout (: FELT SO GOOD (:
I'm really sleepy now! Off to plan my timetable and thereafter, I'M GOING BACK TO STUDYING.
I MUST. I CAN. I WILL. (I HOPE)
Labels: Exercise, Movies
